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More rain rolling in.

As I'm sitting here on the computer [supposed to be doing homework], the rain is falling on my windows, Ninja is curled up under my legs, and Sass keeps pawing at me to get my attention.  *I get it, Sass.  You want to go outside.  It's raining.*  I haven't spoken out loud yet today, just like I didn't yesterday.  My house is completely silent.  Except for Sass' whining, anyway.

I've been in a funk this week, and I'm not sure how to get myself out of it.  The rain coupled with incessant homework assignments are all adding to my growing apathetic feelings.  I don't want to go outside.  I don't want to think about school.  I really don't want to see anyone.  I'm so lonely, it's making me miserable.  Not the kind of lonely that is fixed when you eat lunch with friends; the kind of lonely that exists when your husband is gone for six months and there is nothing but you and your dogs to make the house feel alive.  The kind of lonely that exists when you realize you haven't spoken out loud in two days because there is no one to talk to.  This rain isn't helping at all.

This is just a phase.  I, like so many other women who deal with husbands being gone, will get over this and keep looking forward to the day when he gets home.  And dealing with being on my own day by day is usually not this difficult; but every once in a while, you get a piece of news, or have to deal with an event, and just wish you had your other half here to help you through it.  Just wanted to give a quick update; I haven't disappeared.  I'm here, just sitting and thinking and wishing and hating homework.